something beautiful <3 


Embrace
Jake Hamilton
Marked By Heaven
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EMBRACE

one of my favorite songs. I listened to it on repeat almost everyday while I was in Tanzania (Judy can attest to this). Some nights I would feel so weak and out of place, but I would crawl into bed with embrace playing on my ipod and hugging my bible and would fall asleep. 

God, I want to feel your embrace. I want to feel your arms around me. I want to feel your heart beating next to mine. I want to see your face. I want to see what I can be. I want to see what you can see in the mirror of your eyes. 

Oh that you would rend the heavens and come down! -Isaiah 61:1 


I am reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and in your mother Eunice and, I am persuaded, now lives in you also. For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. For God gave us a spirit not of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.
- 2 Timothy 1: 1-7

I love my mom &lt;3 
Growing up it wasn&#8217;t always like that and there was a lot of brokenness in our family. But I am so blessed to say that God has brought so much healing and love in our family. I am so thankful that we are a family that can pray together and worship God together. My mom is the reason I first started going to church at the end of high school and a big reason for why I have faith today. I love how my mom is life of the party and has a laugh that warms up the whole room. I love how she is such a passionate woman of God and serves our church so whole-heartedly. We are so much alike which has caused us to fight at times but it also make me feel so close to her and can connect to her on a level that I can&#8217;t with anyone else. God, thank you so much for the woman of God You have made my mom and I pray that our family would continue to be one unified by Your love and one that worships You and gives our lives to You. 

I love my mom <3 

Growing up it wasn’t always like that and there was a lot of brokenness in our family. But I am so blessed to say that God has brought so much healing and love in our family. I am so thankful that we are a family that can pray together and worship God together. My mom is the reason I first started going to church at the end of high school and a big reason for why I have faith today. I love how my mom is life of the party and has a laugh that warms up the whole room. I love how she is such a passionate woman of God and serves our church so whole-heartedly. We are so much alike which has caused us to fight at times but it also make me feel so close to her and can connect to her on a level that I can’t with anyone else. God, thank you so much for the woman of God You have made my mom and I pray that our family would continue to be one unified by Your love and one that worships You and gives our lives to You. 


This past sunday, I was also reminded of my mom in Tanzania- mama selle. I miss her so much! I miss waking up and walking out to see her making breakfast on an open fire and greeting her with a &#8220;Shikamoo&#8221; and her asking me how I slept. I love the jokes she made and always made me laugh even when I was having a bad day. I miss helping her with judy peel mbazi beans or sitting with her while she cooked and talking about life. I miss staying up late with her and the family late at night around an open fire under the beautiful sky full of stars, that you could see so clearly there. It amazed me how close I got to her and my family there- that I really consider them my family- mama and baba selle, jezatu, amina, hawa, othumani, omari, selle and even ally! They were a muslim family, which I was a little worried about but God gave me such a deep heart and love for them. Mama was open to the gospel and one day I tried to explain to her with my broken swahili and picture drawings. With the kids we would sometimes sing a swahili gospel song called Hakuna Mungu Kama Wewe (There&#8217;s no one like Jesus) while we walked around the village. The last day we left she even prayed with us. God, I pray for my beautiful family in Tanzania- please continue to be revealing Yourself to them and covering them with Your love.
imani, tumaini, upendo. faith, hope love. &lt;3 

This past sunday, I was also reminded of my mom in Tanzania- mama selle. I miss her so much! I miss waking up and walking out to see her making breakfast on an open fire and greeting her with a “Shikamoo” and her asking me how I slept. I love the jokes she made and always made me laugh even when I was having a bad day. I miss helping her with judy peel mbazi beans or sitting with her while she cooked and talking about life. I miss staying up late with her and the family late at night around an open fire under the beautiful sky full of stars, that you could see so clearly there. It amazed me how close I got to her and my family there- that I really consider them my family- mama and baba selle, jezatu, amina, hawa, othumani, omari, selle and even ally! They were a muslim family, which I was a little worried about but God gave me such a deep heart and love for them. Mama was open to the gospel and one day I tried to explain to her with my broken swahili and picture drawings. With the kids we would sometimes sing a swahili gospel song called Hakuna Mungu Kama Wewe (There’s no one like Jesus) while we walked around the village. The last day we left she even prayed with us. God, I pray for my beautiful family in Tanzania- please continue to be revealing Yourself to them and covering them with Your love.

imani, tumaini, upendo. faith, hope love. <3 


summer

two papers & one oral exam down! one paper & one exam to go!

I’m so excited for summer that its hard to concentrate

- Vancouver with the family (May 16-25)

- Michigan <3 home sweet home (May 26-June 20)

- Korea (June 21-July 3) 

- CHINA for ISEC w/ louis and meewon! (July 3-August 21) 

and i’m also already excited for next year and to live in a DUPLEX in cabot with uni and jiyae and to be closer to all the awesome quad people (that means you- johanna, laura, steph choi, christine, and carol) <3  

okay time to crank out this last paper! 


Come Emmanuel
YWAM Denver
School of Worship - Brick and Vine - EP
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COME EMMANUEL

song that is helping me get through all this paper writing <3

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. - 2 Corinthians 4: 16-18

I pray that my studies and school work would be all for Your glory and Your kingdom


Let hope rise and darkness tremble in Your holy light

a covering, a community, a commandment

Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world-James 1:27


Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke? Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter- when you see the naked, to clothe him, and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood? Then your light will break forth like the dawn and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard. Then you will call, and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say Here I am.  - Isaiah 58: 6-9 


Last night the VP of World Vision, a christian organization that is the largest food distributor in the world, came to give a talk on world hunger and poverty. He talked about three main things: a covering, a community and a commandment. We are called as God’s people to provide a covering and a protection over the vulnerable and needy. God has always put a premium value on innocence and human innocence has always been worthy of protection. As one body, we also need to help build communities around people who need community- not just taking care of our own but reaching out to even those we don’t naturally gravitate toward and putting them in the center. Lastly, there is a commandment.                                                                                                                                                                                                    My commandment is this, LOVE each other as I have LOVED you.                                   - John 15:12


God loved us when we were still sinners and did not love Him. We are called to love people who have not loved us first and may have nothing to give back to us.                                                 

The world today tells us that it is all about us- drawing us in with the next product that can make us more beautiful, more attractive, more desirable. We have become so convinced that its all about me, myself and I, something I have definitely struggled with so much in my life and still struggle with today.                                                                  

Can we hear the music and march to the beat of a different drummer? Can we be a generation who seeks His face and pursues righteousness and justice and to say “I’m going to live for Him by living for them?” God has invited us to reconcile this broken world back to Himself. 


a Love that never fails

If I speak in tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If i give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. 

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am full known. 

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

- 1 Corinthians 13: 1-13 

My understanding of God and who he is still so imperfect but I can hold on to the hope that one day perfection will come and what was just a poor reflection will become seeing Him face to face. I know that spiritual gifts are real but there is still so much confusion around them and reading 1 Corinthians there seems like there was a lot of confusion about them in Paul’s day as well.  

1 Corinthians 14:1 says to follow the way of love and eagerly desire spiritual gifts, especially the gift of prophesy. I think that these spiritual gifts are just that- gifts from God that he desires to give us and which we should eagerly desire. I pray that I would eagerly desire these gifts and have the faith to receive those that God desires to give me. However, I also pray that we would know how to use these gifts so that they edify and strengthen the church and should be displayed with wisdom and discernment because it also says in 1 Corinthians 14:33 that God is not a God of disorder but a God of peace

God, I pray for you to teach us how to desire and receive and use the gifts of the spirit. I pray for discernment in knowing how to go about seeking revival and the manifest presence of the Holy Spirit. I pray that you would rend the heavens and come down and would release the power of the Holy Spirit on our campuses. I pray that we would not put you in a box or constrain you to our preconceived notions of who we think you are or should be. That our prayers would be ‘Not to what I think thou art but to what thou knowest thyself to be” (CS Lewis). 

However, in our pursuit of these spiritual gifts and revival and seeing the Holy Spirit move, I pray that we would always put love first- that everything we do and say would be out of love- Your love. Teach us how to love like You loved us. Show us what love is and how to walk it out and live it out in our everyday lives. I pray that we would be patient and kind, that we would not envy or boast or be proud, that we would not be rude or self-seeking or easily angered, that we would not delight in evil but rejoice with the truth, that we would always protect, always hope and always persevere.

I believe that faith can move mountains! and I pray that I would never doubt the power of the Holy Spirit. but all the signs and wonders mean nothing without love. I pray for deeper revelation of this love

I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge- that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. -Ephesians 3:17-19